[johnny takes a step backward as the whole of him stills and tenses as he stares at her, and his eyes burn further.
the muscles-- the muscles in his arms and his whole body are as tense as can be, and he can't breathe. he can't fucking breathe at all.
jesus.
he is tense and trembling with it as he stares at her because he fucking knows she means the words, and if she means the words, then what the hell even fucking matters anymore? nothing.
nothing matters anymore.
nothing fucking matters.]
Then you won't see me again.
[it's said like a promise
like a goodbye.
everything shatters all at once and he feels everything and nothing and everything and everything and EVERYTHING
and he needs to turn back time and he needs her to be his and the only way he can think to do that-- his hands tremble as they reach for her, they become fists (there is a violence and a hunger and
wow no you are the worst
the muscles-- the muscles in his arms and his whole body are as tense as can be, and he can't breathe. he can't fucking breathe at all.
jesus.
he is tense and trembling with it as he stares at her because he fucking knows she means the words, and if she means the words, then what the hell even fucking matters anymore? nothing.
nothing matters anymore.
nothing fucking matters.]
Then you won't see me again.
[it's said like a promise
like a goodbye.
everything shatters all at once and he feels everything and nothing and everything and everything and EVERYTHING
and he needs to turn back time and he needs her to be his and the only way he can think to do that-- his hands tremble as they reach for her, they become fists (there is a violence and a hunger and
no. no no no no.
no.),
and then he is gone.]