Yeah. It's like a vacation from reality, and it feels real, but... [john folds his arms across his chest, and he lets out a low breath before he ducks his head, shaking it. he bites down on his lip because-- because he has changed here. he has gotten to know her here, and he's opened himself up here in a way he really hasn't back home. it's not just an in-between even if it seems like that's what it is meant for. it's a break, and it can't be permanent with an entire life waiting for them.

john looks up from the darkness of the ocean and the dolphins swimming up through the waves. he meets her gaze slowly in the moonlight, and he shakes his head in answer.] I don't. I know I should want to go back.

I know... I'm responsible, but... I don't know. I really like it here. I like it here with you.