[ethan only barely remembers it. he was so young at the time but he does remember it, remember adam there at the start of it all. how things shifted again and again and again and again. things don't say the same.
they're not supposed to.
he bites down on his lip as he looks at the question, and he wonders if-- how he should-- there was a lot of time with nothing to fill it up with, nothing beyond very basic things]
More than I ever wanted to think about it but yeah. I have. I do. [whatever he's been through, ethan knows it's preferable to their dad having found all of them, to what would have come, to how their father would have hurt the people around them to get to them and to destroy them and remake them as he wanted to do so. he understands more than he ever has before, the monster inside of himself. the monster he's been trying to run away from but finally caught up with him
but he knows he has no idea the kind of monster their father is. wherever the hell he is. god, how he misses chicago more than he can ever express.] Do you ever think about it?
[locked]
they're not supposed to.
he bites down on his lip as he looks at the question, and he wonders if-- how he should-- there was a lot of time with nothing to fill it up with, nothing beyond very basic things]
More than I ever wanted to think about it but yeah. I have. I do. [whatever he's been through, ethan knows it's preferable to their dad having found all of them, to what would have come, to how their father would have hurt the people around them to get to them and to destroy them and remake them as he wanted to do so. he understands more than he ever has before, the monster inside of himself. the monster he's been trying to run away from but finally caught up with him
but he knows he has no idea the kind of monster their father is. wherever the hell he is. god, how he misses chicago more than he can ever express.] Do you ever think about it?