Damon feels his jaw lock as she continues. No, there has to be a reason. There has to be a reason behind everything terrible that has ever happened to him and every terrible thing he has done to the people around him. It is because he is terrible. Nothing else makes sense to him. Nothing else is something he can process. It doesn't matter how right she may be. Damon cannot see it or feel it as being right.
He takes a step toward her as she takes that step back from him. He is dangerous and reckless. It's his choice that he made because he is a terrible thing. Otherwise, there are hundreds of years of guilt that he doesn't want to-- can't afford to feel. He isn't human. Feeling like he is remotely human, that is what hurts because it isn't true.
"I have before for a long time. Life sucks either way. That's what I told Jeremy when I came to tell him you died. Life sucks either way."
A lot of things have changed... but that-- that hasn't. He isn't going to admit he no longer has the ability to turn it off. It was his rift change. He wouldn't turn it off here anywhere, but how he craved to just let go of every emotion in that other world for over eighty years.
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He takes a step toward her as she takes that step back from him. He is dangerous and reckless. It's his choice that he made because he is a terrible thing. Otherwise, there are hundreds of years of guilt that he doesn't want to-- can't afford to feel. He isn't human. Feeling like he is remotely human, that is what hurts because it isn't true.
"I have before for a long time. Life sucks either way. That's what I told Jeremy when I came to tell him you died. Life sucks either way."
A lot of things have changed... but that-- that hasn't. He isn't going to admit he no longer has the ability to turn it off. It was his rift change. He wouldn't turn it off here anywhere, but how he craved to just let go of every emotion in that other world for over eighty years.